Sometimes I'm totally bored of being with my child.
Sometimes I wish I'd never had a kid.
I'm secretly hoping to get accidentally pregnant.
(I think I may be crazy)
Sometimes I hate families with two parents.
But, really, I secretly envy them.
I would get electrolysis if I could afford it & didn't think people would judge me.
I'd probably also get a boob job if I thought it would look natural & I didn't think people would judge me.
I judge people who don't breast feed.
I once spent $1000 on clothes because I was mad at Him for sleeping with another woman.
I have cheated on every boyfriend I've ever had.
I once lied to a credit card company & told them my card had been stolen, so I wouldn't have to pay for the last few times I used that card.
I had an abortion.
I'm terrified my parents will find this blog.
I'm scared to tell my parents I'm getting divorced. Even though they probably already know. I mean, I've been living separately from my husband for almost 2 years now.
One of the reasons I haven't (officially) gotten divorced yet is that I'm afraid I won't be able to support myself on my own.
Another reason I haven't (officially) gotten divorced yet is that I still sometimes think we'll work it out.
One of the reasons I dye my hair is so no one will see I'm starting to go gray.
I do. not. like. the wrinkles forming between my eyebrows.
I'm OK with the ones at the corners of my eyes.
I have pretty much always been afraid I was fat - since I was about 11 - except for about the 6 months before I got pregnant.
I loved being pregnant. So. Much.
One of the reasons I want another baby is so I can be pregnant again.
And give birth again.
I am totally jealous of other people's success. Especially their successful relationships.
I secretly wish bad things upon people I've felt hurt by.
I often feel lonely.
I feel angry most of the time.
I'm obsessed with really expensive jeans & boots.
I sometimes ignore my kid to write in this blog.
I'm afraid I may not do anything worthwhile with my life.