Tonight

                              (he is so unbelievably beautiful when he sleeps - it breaks my heart)

I fell asleep while putting Trent to bed (around 7:30p) tonight.

I woke up around 8:30p & felt so achingly lonely...
The house was dark & all the doors & windows were open & it was very, very still and quiet.

I think this is the (empty) place inside myself I need to sit in right now.